Question three from The Book of Questions:
If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone? Why haven’t you told them yet?
i'd probably regret not getting to tell my family and friends i love them one more time, but i'm confident they know that already. would just be good to say it one more time.
a couple of my friendships have faded over the past five years and i suppose i'd like to find out why. i lost touch with stacy, strangely enough, when i lived only minutes away from her house. i visited a couple of times when i first moved to kent, but then we never talked and i got busy and i assumed she did too. but now it's been over four years with no contact. a similar thing happened with jennifer - we were in contact for so long and then suddenly *poof* no more. i guess i hesitate to say anything to either of them because i'm sure they have their reasons and i don't want to tread where i'm not wanted. i can take a hint. and i'm also a little afraid of what i might find out if i ask why they haven't kept in touch. i can't think of anything i might have done to offend them, but then i can be fairly clueless at times.
maybe i should keep on trying - the only time you fail is the last time you try, right? i just don't want to seem like a stalker. but both of them were close friends and i do miss them.
which raises the question, when and how does a friendship end? i know there are people in my own past who i was once close to but haven't contacted in a while - matt, robin, jason, paul, mike. are those friendships over? i'd like to think we could pick up where we left off. so why haven't i? and why haven't they?
thus ends the question/answer part of our evening....
long weekend ahead. i'll be here at the school until after 10:30 tonight with the acting out...er...acting up children's theatre. another six hours to add to this weeks time card- nearly twenty-five total. be great when that paycheck hits.
candice is going to be in cincy tomorrow and we're hoping to hook up for lunch. then back here to mason for another fun-filled evening with the sanitized verison of grease. praise God for headphones. i'd like to go see the departed this weekend if i can find the time. probably should see the original first (infernal affairs), but i doubt that will happen.
i splurged a bit yesterday and bought the new U2 by U2 coffee table book. quite the tome - i'm looking forward to leisurely perusing it and reading their account of their remarkable career. loved what i've read so far - for rock stars, they're all quite articulate. definite must have if you're a U2 fan, but i'm not sure it'll make you like them if you don't already. you'll probably just write them off as megalomaniacal and not nearly as cool or important as (insert your favorite band here).
at least the show started at 7:00 and not 8:00, which means i'll get home a little earlier. finished up my grading, so now i can focus on those stupid essays i've been carrying around forever. must finish them this weekend, which is certainly doable.
enough for now. looking forward to getting home and watching the season premiere of bsg. here's hoping i'm not lost because i missed the end of last season.
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Tunes: daniel amos - on the line
Friday, October 06, 2006
Thursday, October 05, 2006
slacker
how can it be that at the beginning of the week i thought the weekend would never come and now that it's here, i have no idea what happened to the week. i turned around and *poof* it was gone.
pleasantly busy - worked the auditorium monday night, covering for everyone so they could go to jack's mom's visitation. tuesday we painted emily ogle's room a lovely shade of pepto bismol pink for house church (she chose it, not us). last night, sarah martin called and invited me to pay-what-you-can night at footlighter's for seussical, so i skipped buying groceries for another night and went down. show was good, though the characters needed to be bigger and the lighting sucked. sarah was, as always, a high point. i even got invited up on stage at the beginning of act two - i thought sarah has set me up, but found out later it had just been coincidence. an evening well spent. good to see sarah and patrick again. and good to see some more theatre, especially at the price.
spent time in class today talking about america's preoccupation with sex and how it shapes how we view someone like chris mccandless who chose to be celibate. always enlightening to hear my student's opinions. my third bell was quite vocal - we ended up running out of time and having to continue the discussion tomorrow. my fifth bell heard me mention sex and i pretty much lost them to adolescent humor. why must my fifth bell always be the most challenging?
so there's a discussion on the dadl-ot, basically calling for the destruction of public schools, that we need to tear it down and start from scratch. i understand why they believe it, but it's also gets my hackles up to hear them say things like "Also public school do a lousy job of teaching how to think, they prefer teaching what to think" and "They dont teach critical thinking anymore. They teach all the other feel good crap. They dont have the foundation on fundamentals." nothing like generalizations to make your point. look, i know there are serious problems in the way we do education in this country and we ought to be looking at other options and possibilities, but i'm pretty sure dismantling they system will create far more chaos. but then i have a vested interest in seeing schools continue. just saddens me that the perception is so different from what i've experienced as a teacher. granted, mason's a bit unique, but i refuse to believe public education is irredeemable.
i'll put my soap box away now.
new bsg tomorrow night. was going to tape the episodes i missed from last year, but rachel has 2.5, so i think i'll just tape the premiere and watch it when i catch up.
my eharmony adventure continues....some new matches, trying to get to open communication with one that looks very promising. spent quite a bit of time answering her second questions - wanted to make sure i got them just right. now we wait to see how she answers mine. replied to susie and invited her to dinner next weekend - i'll be up in the columbus area for a mvnwhatever drama meeting, so thought that might be a good chance to actually meet. we'll see what she thinks.
ok, time to try to go to sleep. still haven't been able to drop off before midnight at all this week. but at least i'm not waking up at 3-4 AM anymore. maybe i'll get on a normal sleep schedule sometime before i take the big sleep. keeping my fingers crossed.
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Tunes: podunk - boomerang
pleasantly busy - worked the auditorium monday night, covering for everyone so they could go to jack's mom's visitation. tuesday we painted emily ogle's room a lovely shade of pepto bismol pink for house church (she chose it, not us). last night, sarah martin called and invited me to pay-what-you-can night at footlighter's for seussical, so i skipped buying groceries for another night and went down. show was good, though the characters needed to be bigger and the lighting sucked. sarah was, as always, a high point. i even got invited up on stage at the beginning of act two - i thought sarah has set me up, but found out later it had just been coincidence. an evening well spent. good to see sarah and patrick again. and good to see some more theatre, especially at the price.
spent time in class today talking about america's preoccupation with sex and how it shapes how we view someone like chris mccandless who chose to be celibate. always enlightening to hear my student's opinions. my third bell was quite vocal - we ended up running out of time and having to continue the discussion tomorrow. my fifth bell heard me mention sex and i pretty much lost them to adolescent humor. why must my fifth bell always be the most challenging?
so there's a discussion on the dadl-ot, basically calling for the destruction of public schools, that we need to tear it down and start from scratch. i understand why they believe it, but it's also gets my hackles up to hear them say things like "Also public school do a lousy job of teaching how to think, they prefer teaching what to think" and "They dont teach critical thinking anymore. They teach all the other feel good crap. They dont have the foundation on fundamentals." nothing like generalizations to make your point. look, i know there are serious problems in the way we do education in this country and we ought to be looking at other options and possibilities, but i'm pretty sure dismantling they system will create far more chaos. but then i have a vested interest in seeing schools continue. just saddens me that the perception is so different from what i've experienced as a teacher. granted, mason's a bit unique, but i refuse to believe public education is irredeemable.
i'll put my soap box away now.
new bsg tomorrow night. was going to tape the episodes i missed from last year, but rachel has 2.5, so i think i'll just tape the premiere and watch it when i catch up.
my eharmony adventure continues....some new matches, trying to get to open communication with one that looks very promising. spent quite a bit of time answering her second questions - wanted to make sure i got them just right. now we wait to see how she answers mine. replied to susie and invited her to dinner next weekend - i'll be up in the columbus area for a mvnwhatever drama meeting, so thought that might be a good chance to actually meet. we'll see what she thinks.
ok, time to try to go to sleep. still haven't been able to drop off before midnight at all this week. but at least i'm not waking up at 3-4 AM anymore. maybe i'll get on a normal sleep schedule sometime before i take the big sleep. keeping my fingers crossed.
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Tunes: podunk - boomerang
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