WARNING!

Reading this blog has made people want to kill themselves, so if you are easily depressed, perhaps you should find something more uplifting to do, like watch a Holocaust documentary or read a Cormac McCarthy novel.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

you! me! dancing!

the title of this post is brought to you by los campesinos! they love their exclamation points.

working the bonnie williams dance extravaganza. been here since noon. it's still going on, though i hope it ends in the next hour or so. nothing like a ten/eleven hour day. but it gave me time to get through some journal, though only half. unlike many groups, this one needed much more personal attention. had to fix the traveler, put in the gobo, and my personal favorite, wire up their chandeliers. have to say, was much easier this year. still, more time than i would like to spend. i know, i shouldn't complain, it's such a cushy job.

the end is in sight. two exam days. one teacher work day. and then summer in all of its glory is upon me. looking forward to not waking up before the sun rises, though i'll still be up early for prayers. at least this summer i'll get to go - no summer courses at miami this time. oh how sweet. though i might see if i can carve an hour or two out of each day to do some writing. and i'm going to try and not drive if i don't have to - will walk or ride everywhere, which will mean a little more planning on my part. but with gas at or above $4 a gallon, i think it will be worth it. started a little this week - met colin at quatman's and walked there. about 4 miles round trip. not too bad. and if i actually get around to buying groceries, i won't get sick of eating at the restaurants in norwood.

and believe it or not i have plans! plans for the summer! alexa emailed me this week and invited me to come out to colorado, which made two invites in less than a week - a sure sign i should go. so i jumped online, did a quick search for cheap plane tickets, found some that were within my budget and voilà, i'm off to colorado for 13 days. be good to be back in the mountains again, and to see alexa and ryan and shannon and paul. now i just have to figure out what i'm going to do while i'm there. don't want to mooch off my friends too much while i'm there. should have time to make plans before july. nice to know i won't spend the entire summer locked in my house....

sounds like the dance extravaganza is ending. probably need to head down and start dismantling everything i set up. i don't think it will take long. at least i hope not. will have to blog a bit more tomorrow, either before or after graduation, which is tomorrow. could be an emotional day. i'll have to let you know.
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now playing: U2 - another time, another place

Monday, May 26, 2008

perpetratin' a little stimulation

glorious "geekend" in wild and wonderful weirvegas. definitely worth the trip. friday was spent waiting for steve to finally arrive, eventually resulting in playing a kim possible video game and for some unexplicable reason, us toasting jeremy (jerry!) with harvey wallbangers (which turned out to be completely appropriate, though we didn't know it at the time. from wikipedia: "The Annual Howie Wallbanger is party held at Hal's Bar and Grill in Venice, California on the Friday before Memorial Day that celebrates the Harvey Wallbanger cocktail." spoooooky). then saturday, after a morning of trading mp3s, we traveled up to pittsburgh, where i engaged in some economic stimulation. my tools of choice:

bubba ho tep dvd
reefer madness: the musical dvd
the muppet show season 2 dvd
the muppet show season 3 dvd

following the stimulation, we headed to primanti brothers to watch the pens/wings game. good time, even though the pens lost. kind of torn since i like both teams - actually would be happy to see either one win (though right now it looks like it will be detroit in a walk...er...skate).

then sunday, i headed over to bloomingdale ohio for paul and shannon's post-nuptial hootenanny. was running late and then got pulled over on the way there (for not having a properly displayed front liscense plate) and then missed the turn not once, not twice, but three times. but i eventually made it. was nervous it would be awkward since i didn't really know anyone but shannon and paul (though i'd met her sisters before), but it was a good time. glad i got to go. at one point, while shannon and paul were visiting everyone, i stepped outside to enjoy the spectacular day. something about the rolling hills of ohio that make me wistful - can my family memory go that deep? anyway, i got to thinking about how i've been feeling hope slip away lately, how the possibility of me celebrating my own post-nuptial hootenanny grows fainter and fainter. standing there, warmed by the late-may sun, i realized it wasn't hope that was slipping away; rather, it was the need to get married for my life to be complete. am i becoming (gasp!) content? perhaps. and i'm not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing. good because obviously i won't be quite so whiny anymore (at least about this). bad because i no longer feel the impetus to find someone, to be searching. i don't know. will have to give it more thought, which i'll have plenty of time to do come next week...

today was fairly lazy. had grand plans to go on a long bike ride. turned into a fairly short jaunt up to jalepenos (where i ran into my friend kristin and her husband) and half price books (where i continued my stimulation by purchasing buechner's telling the truth and klosterman's killing yourself to live). with gas prices pushing $4.00, i'd like to get in the habit of not driving if i don't have to, trying to stay local as much as possible. did that for the most part today, other than an ironic trip to fill my tank ($45.00!). other than that, my day was spent (wasted?) doing very little. which was nice. of course, it makes it quite difficult to get excited about going to class for the rest of the week. but the end is here. and there was much rejoicing.

time for bed.
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Now playing: Big Country - Fields of Fire (400 Miles)
via FoxyTunes