let's see, it's 10:11, which means i have been up for, oh, nearly four and a half hours now. not the way i envisioned my memorial day weekend beginning. add to that the inability to sleep last night until around 3AM and you have a good inkling of what my brain is like at the moment. on the plus side, the extra early morning hours have allowed me to get most of my laundry done for the moment. will pull my khakis and jeans out of the dryer soon, put in my whites and bed sheets, then head out to mow my lawn, which means i could conceivably be finished with the chores i set for myself before noon.
now if i can just avoid crashing too hard later today.
for the final friday with students, yesterday sucked. something attacked me, emotionally, and i was out of sorts the entire day. andy joked 'twas from realizing soon my students would be gone and i would be missing them. somehow i doubt it. not that i don't love my students, but i am anxious for the summer to come so i can refresh and recharge. anyway, i felt horrible inside, made worse because i felt myself inflicting it on my students, which they didn't deserve. ah well, 'twill be over soon enough. trying not to think of all i have to get done before tuesday arrives....
already i feel myself gripping time too tightly, watching it spill through my fingers. summer has yet begun and already i feel myself wasting it. i look ahead to the coming weeks and realize i have little planned, which somehow translates itself into doing nothing. which i know is not true, but it's how it feels. i have no trips planned, not now that i realize my hope of making it to nyc to see doug has evaporated (sorry anne. just can't make the timing or the fundage work). so what will i do with my time? right now i depend on making it into shakespeare in sharonville, which i am confident will happen. the question is which role will i play. at least it will take up some of my time, keep me from being a complete sluggard for the summer months. and as nature abhors a vacuum, i know the space will eventually be filled one way or another. i only pray it is with meaningful activity - or non-activity as the case may be.
ali's party is tonight, which will be a wonderful way to spend the evening. here's hoping social thurm shows up and not his melancholy, introverted twin. sounds like 'twould be easy to control, but 'tis not. nappage may be needed to insure the necessary energy. if only i had my hammock....perhaps i should journey to sam's, which i need to do anyway as i am dangerously low on toilet paper and soap.
dryer time. must remove so they don't wrinkle. then mow mow mow. here's to enjoying a glorious day.
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Tunes: teenage fanclub - sharky's dream
Saturday, May 27, 2006
moments (stolen)
allison blogged on this and i commented on her blog and since i'm too tired to write anything else, this will have to do for now....
- walking under a tree during an eclipse and seeing hundreds of scattered eclipses from the shadows of the leaves
- sitting under the stars on a florida beach the summer after college, talking with my friends on where we thought we'd be in a year as we watched a storm roll across the horizon
- on my knees in a converted hotel meeting room in denver where God told me the path i had walked for 13 years was no longer for me
- a chilly october night in arrowhead stadium, singing with or without you to no one in particular
- sitting in the back seat of jay's car, holding hands for the first time with a girl i would never kiss
- my lips actually burning after keeping a promise to my friend mike and stealing a kiss from my friend michelle
- the shock of hearing my name called for the best performance award my sophomore year of high school
- rounding the curve on my bicycle, hitting the gravel, and realizing i was headed right for the ditch. i spent the next 13 weeks in a halo
- searching for my ID with stacy and spending hours huddled on a bench sharing dreams and warmth
- having drinks with douglas coupland and a group of campers at a uber-yuppie bar in boston and talking about 9/11 and quilting
your turn. share yours.
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Tunes: chris isaac - wicked game
- walking under a tree during an eclipse and seeing hundreds of scattered eclipses from the shadows of the leaves
- sitting under the stars on a florida beach the summer after college, talking with my friends on where we thought we'd be in a year as we watched a storm roll across the horizon
- on my knees in a converted hotel meeting room in denver where God told me the path i had walked for 13 years was no longer for me
- a chilly october night in arrowhead stadium, singing with or without you to no one in particular
- sitting in the back seat of jay's car, holding hands for the first time with a girl i would never kiss
- my lips actually burning after keeping a promise to my friend mike and stealing a kiss from my friend michelle
- the shock of hearing my name called for the best performance award my sophomore year of high school
- rounding the curve on my bicycle, hitting the gravel, and realizing i was headed right for the ditch. i spent the next 13 weeks in a halo
- searching for my ID with stacy and spending hours huddled on a bench sharing dreams and warmth
- having drinks with douglas coupland and a group of campers at a uber-yuppie bar in boston and talking about 9/11 and quilting
your turn. share yours.
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Tunes: chris isaac - wicked game
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
wishing i wasn't still singing this song....
I can't believe summer's almost here
I made it through another year even if alone
but there's no tears in my eyes
life is still full of surprise
I'm not looking for a one night stand
I stand behind you and I watch you from a mile away
wishing you could be the one but not here this way
I'd like to know your name
and I must know who you are Yeah
I look at you and I know who you are
you're just a little bit too far from my home
but please don't get me wrong even though it has been long
I hope I never sing my last song without someone
king's x - goldilox
Tunes: duh
Monday, May 22, 2006
anyone want a free magazine?
one of my favorite magazines, paste magazine, is asking its subscribers to supply names and addresses of those who would like to recieve a free issue, no strings attached. i love this magazine - great articles, and you get a cd every issue and sometimes a dvd. i've been a subscriber since issue #1 and i have never failed to read it cover to cover. and the cds, unlike some compilations, are full of great tunes.
only catch: i have to turn in my list by may 26 (friday). so if you're interested, e-mail your address to me and i'll make sure you get an issue.
what have you got to lose?
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Tunes: the white stripes - i'm bound to pack it up (e-music added the white stripes to their downloads - woohoo!)
only catch: i have to turn in my list by may 26 (friday). so if you're interested, e-mail your address to me and i'll make sure you get an issue.
what have you got to lose?
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Tunes: the white stripes - i'm bound to pack it up (e-music added the white stripes to their downloads - woohoo!)
the battle is over....
...but the war rages on.
just a bit of hyperbole here at the end of the first prong of my three battle war with my student's work. the research papers are graded - i will input them into the gradebook tomorrow and pass them back. this leaves only the independent novel projects, which i hope to finish by friday, and their journals, which will be graded while i work at the auditorium this weekend (or on memorial day, if all else fails). spent the afternoon at panera, which worked well enough that i may try it again in the future. they have caffeine-free diet pepsi, which is good news for my overly sensitive body (was up past 2AM last night because of the caffeinated beverage i had last night around 6PM. ridiculous). with each paper graded i can feel another layer peeled off, lightening my load and preparing me for the glory of summer.
i'll try not to get all giddy on yo' asses as the time draws to a close.
thanks for those who provided some insight into my dream. as was pointed out elsewhere, i have indeed had a similar dream before, which i realized as i typed it up. repeating dreams must mean this is a serious issue i'm trying to work out. from my friend alexa: (via http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/w2.htm)
"To see a wedding in your dream, symbolizes a new beginning or transition in your current life. Dreams involving weddings are generally negative and highlight some anxiety or fear. It often refers to feelings of bitterness, sorrow, or death. Alternatively, wedding dreams reflect your issues about commitment and independence.
To dream that you are planning your own wedding to someone you never met, is a metaphor symbolizing the union of your masculine and feminine side. It represents a transitional phase where you are seeking some sort of balance between your aggressive side and emotional side."
i hope it's the latter interpretation, 'cause otherwise i need to figure out what my anxiety, bitterness or sorrow is about. though death certainly has been a significant part of my life in recent months. hmmmm. more to ponder (which will probably screw up even more of my dreams).
ok, off to bed. here's hoping sleep slips under the sheets with me much earlier tonight.
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Tunes: the white stripes - you're pretty good looking (for a girl)
just a bit of hyperbole here at the end of the first prong of my three battle war with my student's work. the research papers are graded - i will input them into the gradebook tomorrow and pass them back. this leaves only the independent novel projects, which i hope to finish by friday, and their journals, which will be graded while i work at the auditorium this weekend (or on memorial day, if all else fails). spent the afternoon at panera, which worked well enough that i may try it again in the future. they have caffeine-free diet pepsi, which is good news for my overly sensitive body (was up past 2AM last night because of the caffeinated beverage i had last night around 6PM. ridiculous). with each paper graded i can feel another layer peeled off, lightening my load and preparing me for the glory of summer.
i'll try not to get all giddy on yo' asses as the time draws to a close.
thanks for those who provided some insight into my dream. as was pointed out elsewhere, i have indeed had a similar dream before, which i realized as i typed it up. repeating dreams must mean this is a serious issue i'm trying to work out. from my friend alexa: (via http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/w2.htm)
"To see a wedding in your dream, symbolizes a new beginning or transition in your current life. Dreams involving weddings are generally negative and highlight some anxiety or fear. It often refers to feelings of bitterness, sorrow, or death. Alternatively, wedding dreams reflect your issues about commitment and independence.
To dream that you are planning your own wedding to someone you never met, is a metaphor symbolizing the union of your masculine and feminine side. It represents a transitional phase where you are seeking some sort of balance between your aggressive side and emotional side."
i hope it's the latter interpretation, 'cause otherwise i need to figure out what my anxiety, bitterness or sorrow is about. though death certainly has been a significant part of my life in recent months. hmmmm. more to ponder (which will probably screw up even more of my dreams).
ok, off to bed. here's hoping sleep slips under the sheets with me much earlier tonight.
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Tunes: the white stripes - you're pretty good looking (for a girl)
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