WARNING!

Reading this blog has made people want to kill themselves, so if you are easily depressed, perhaps you should find something more uplifting to do, like watch a Holocaust documentary or read a Cormac McCarthy novel.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

kick a guy when he's down

*sigh* truth be told, i'm not feeling much better than i have all week. i'm fine as long as i'm lying down, but as soon as i stand and move around, whatever's taken residence in my lungs starts throwing furniture around the room and i start coughing. the pain in my lungs is mostly gone, but my head still aches and i feel just a bit on the woozy side most of the time. so no school for me again tomorrow. which, i guess, makes the administration a bit wary, since ian called and asked me to bring in a doctor's note. best i can do is the receipt from urgent care, since i'm between doctors. hopefully that's ok - if not, guess i'll...i have no idea. like being sick wasn't bad enough.

medicine's made me all wonky - tired, but unable to fall asleep. it's whatever that sudafedish stuff is. i'm not sure the medicine is working - the phlegm's reduced, but the other stuff lingers. i suppose it takes a bit of time to work, much longer than i wish. not like i like being out of my classroom, since it mostly means i'm going to be buried in grading for a while (yeah, so what else is new). but no use being miserable at school, especially if this illness is something that's going around (which i read in some email i looked at today on my school account).

so how does one spend their days when they have bronchitis? sleep as much as possible, eat some breakfast so there's something in your stomach besides the four pills you take in the morning, check school email and personal, lie in bed for a while finishing off take the canolli by sarah vowell, wander to the comfy chair to finish off newsradio, doze off through lunch, drink lots of fluids, finish watching ZooTV, begin watching my name is earl, get a quick burst of nesting energy and sweep up your entertainment room, watch more earl, get some dinner, take more pills, watch more earl, drink more fluids, call for a sub, call andy to make sure all is well tomorrow, miss call from ian asking for a note, hope to fall asleep to veronica mars, realize it's not going to happen, so you wander in, answer some email and update your blog. fun, no?

not sure what's being celebrated in norwood tonight, but someone has fireworks and has been setting them off periodically for some unbeknownst reason. the upcoming autumnal equinox, perhaps? never heard of blowing things up to celebrate the sun's crossing the equator and ushering in fall, but i wasn' t here last year at this time, so what do i know?

feeling a wee bit melancholy at the moment - as with most stuff this week, i'm blaming the drugs. no reason to be emotional - not that that has stopped me before. 'tis that time of the year. maybe i should blow some stuff up - might make me feel better. right now, i'd settle for this stupid bronchitis to be gone.

all right, enough. going to go lie down, hope sleep comes to take me away. and that the medicine doesn't screw up my dreams, too.
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Tunes: new order - crystal

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

hooray bronchitis!

home again - woke up realizing the otc drugs i've been taking haven't done much to make me feel better. so i called ian, got me a sub and went back to sleep for a couple of hours. woke up and decided i needed to go get looked at, but since i am inbetween doctors, i meandered on over to urgent care (which is much closer than i thought), armed with a book, a magazine and my mp3 player (in case there was a wait). wasn't too bad, though i'm always amazed at the amount of time waiting vs the amount of time spent with the doctor. diagnosis: bronchitis. so now i don't feel so bad about calling off - for some reason i usually feel guilty, like if i'm conscious, i should be going to work, fulfilling my obligations. so now i'm on three medications (guaifenex, naproxen and biaxin for the curious) which hopefully will take care of this. be nice to feel somewhat normal again.

beautiful day outside. this is my weather - mid to upper 50s, cool breeze. ah autumn. wish i was in a better place to actually enjoy it. the strange thing is i have this great desire right now to clean, which happens just about never. so do i try to do some cleaning, knowing i really should be taking it easy, or do i go with what i'm feeling and get busy. if i wait long enough, the feeling will probably go away. but who knows when it might return.

again, i'm blaming the medication for my weirdness.

pulled the trigger (i have no idea why i keep using this cliche - i don't even like guns) and signed up for three months of eharmony. now i just have to go through and pick up the communication. i've reached open with one person, the rest we're still doing the "get to know me through ridiculous questions" dance. trying to decide if i need to narrow my choices down and how best to do that. as my friend kat warned, i don't need to become a serial dater at this point in my life.

the joys of expensive gas: one unexpected side effect from the oil companies raping us this summer with their raised gas prices for no reason (don't try to explain market forces to me - it's all politics, baby) is i was able to pick up U2s new DVD - ZooTV Live in Sydney - for free! yep, cashed in my speedyrewards points for a $25.00 gift card to circuit city, which was selling the dvd for only $15.99 (compared to $29.99 at best buy). plus, i have almost $8.00 leftover to use toward something else. score! the dvd makes me nostalgic for my first U2 concert - zootv outdoor broadcast in kansas city. while not exactly like being there, the flashbacks were pretty intense. and the included swag was cool, too. so thanks to all those money-grubbing politicians and oil executives for helping me get my dvd free. least you could do, ya bastards.

no house church last night - felt it was best not to infect everyone. i mean, i'm all for sharing our lives, just not our diseases. we'll pick up next week. looking forward to getting to know everyone a bit better, though at the moment, i'm missing some of the folks from st. e's. don't get to see them as much now that school has started and i've been sick. again with the growing pains.

ok, need to go hydrate. i hope everyone i know feels better than i do. and if you've been near me lately, sorry if i've infected you (he says, having no idea if bronchitis is contagious or not). later.
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Tunes: podunk - a little more

Monday, September 18, 2006

an extra day of rest

and phlegm. and coughing. and no sleep. lovely.

no school for me today, though that doesn't mean i didn't do anything school-related. had to get stuff ready for the sub, update my edline page, answer some emails. but all of that was done before 6:45AM - again with the no sleeping. so glad i have access to the network from home, otherwise this living 25 minutes away would really suck, especially if i had to drive in to get stuff together. hopefully all went well with my classes. not sure about tomorrow - will depend mostly on how my sleep is tonight. the sudafed has jacked up my sleep schedule.

time to put up or shut up: so the communication weekend is over and if i want to continue what i've started, i'm going to have to fork over the $110+ for three months. an investment. plus, i'm having a little fun doing this - i'm much better at the writing than i am at the awkward first date phase. and this way i get to know a little about them without worrying about being "on." and i must be well suited for this, considering the number of matches i've received. here's hoping it doesn't go to my head....

i'm a bit concerned about house church tomorrow. this isn't like the brownhouse, which tracy keeps clear of cold-causing agents. and with being sick, i fear for uly and for the rest of my guests. i'd see about holding it somewhere else, but wouldn't know where. and i haven't talked to anyone, so really no solid plans for dinner. these are the details slipping through the cracks at the moment. call them growing pains.

avoiding the steelers game at the moment, waiting for studio 60 to come on. taping the game, will watch studio 60, though i probably should try to go to bed instead. but not feeling the least bit tired at the moment. not good.

out of ideas. words fail me. bye.
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Tunes: U2 - don't take your guns to town

Sunday, September 17, 2006

i love being sick

4:00 AM and here i sit, at my computer, unable to sleep because of a sore throat and a body refusing to fall asleep. this happened last time i went to KI, too, the not sleeping. maybe if i get too much adrenaline in a given day, my body gets overtired and can't sleep. all i know is i can't seem to get my brain to turn off and my body seems much to alert for 4:00 AM. i did mention it's 4:00 AM, right?

doesn't help that i woke up at 1:00 AM to nature's call, only to feel a spider crawling on me. and then it wouldn't let go. kept jumping from one part of my body to another. i'm getting creeped out just typing about it. i can only imagine what it might have done had i not gotten up. *shudder*

KI with shannon was great, as always. park was a bit more crowded than usual for dividend day - no walking straight onto rides. but we rode everything we wanted to and the best ones (delirium, backward racer, vortex and, of course, the beast) twice. saw several students, per usual, who always look at me strangely, knowing i don't work at P&G and wondering what i'm doing there. got a decent bag of goodies, too, though they were sorely lacking in male items this year.

the search continues: eharmony is indeed free this weekend, so i've been taking advantage by going through my matches and making some contact. it being my first time and feeling quantity is probably better than quality at this point, i've established communication with 27 potential matches. so far i've gotten through the first two or three steps with eight of them. the rest aren't around this weekend or aren't interested. not feeling a spark from any of them yet, but then still don't have a lot of info about them at this point. shannon did suggest i only sign up for three months and then let it lapse, because they offer special deals to resign up - she's currently on a month to month basis for 12.95 a month. much better than the buy a year's worth for 20.95. will probably sign up this week, just so i can take full advantage of the site (read: see some pictures)

it's like i've swallowed semi-molten gravel, which has lodged itself in my throat. oi the pain.

ok, i'm going to go read and hopefully fall back asleep. think i'll be getting bread for communion and seeing if someone can cover for me - no one likes an officiant whose nose is dripping into the cup (how' s that for an image?). please, sleep, come.
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Tunes: suzanne vega - calypso