free day

sitting at betta's, waiting for a pepperoni/sausage/extra cheese calzone. just sounded good today. been a decent day so far - went to prayers, shoveled my driveway, sidewalk and stairs, slept a bit more. am on my way to the library to pickup the maltese falcon for tomorrow's film club and then to the esquire to see little children. figure if i do all this now then i can grade tonight. here's hoping i'm not fooling myself.

revisited Life After God again a bit this morning. i'm feeling a strong desire again to do this, sooner than later. i put it off much longer and i'll be too old to play scout - probably too old now, but it's my adaptation and i want to play him. the trickiest part will be the casting, especially stacey and dana. the other characters, i know people that could play them. but i don't know too many malibu barbie blondes. or porn stars. i would love to keep this within the vc community, but not sure that will prove possible, or even wise. i only get one shot at this, so i want it to be great. need to do more thinking on this.

lent's right around the corner and i've begun asking God where He'd like me to go this year. and i sense Him leading me toward a complete fast this year. i did this seven years ago, though that was a juice fast. this time it would be nothing but water, maybe some broth if things get too tough. last time focused on where God would take me next and eventually led me to kent state and to teaching high school. i'm feeling a similar desire now, to know what lies ahead. i'm not in the wilderness like before, but i have a sense of an approaching horizon and i want to be sure i'm ready for whatever is coming.

movie starts in an hour. better be going. Æ

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ah, the best laid plans.....

made it to the library, got stuck in the drive thru lane, so was a bit frustrated pulling out and didn't bother to look at the video, assuming they had given me the correct one. they hadn't. they had pulled the 1931 version instead of the 1941 version. not what i wanted. of course, i found this out after the movie, so decided to return it and pick up the correct one. so i headed toward downtown only to discover they didn't have it there. but they did have a copy at st. bernard - the place i had just left. so i had to backtrack and pretty did a big circle around the city to get there before they closed at 6:00. made it, but just barely. should have looked at it when i got it, but getting my car through the snow was a higher priority.

little children was an excellent film and surprisingly (and darkly) amusing at points. great performances all around. the story was well-covered ground - the soullessness of suburban life, infidelity as a way of breaking the monotony, our need to condemn. nothing new, but still done well. jackie earle haley performance was beyond creepy yet with enough humanity to make us feel for him. not a best picture film but one worth seeing for the distorted mirror it holds up to our own lives and insecurities.

tried to indulge in some consumer therapy using my christmas gift card, but i can't seem to buy music anymore. seems ridiculous to spend $10.00+ for cds anymore. i blame emusic - all i keep thinking is i can get more music for less money there. plus, i'm not excited about anything i've read about or heard lately. should have just bought the jake speed cd and a couple of greatest hits and been done with it. but couldn't pull the trigger.

need to go grade now. and figure out how i'm going to get my classes through everything before the end of the trimester. can't believe how little time is actually left. this is not good..... Æ


Tunes: the smiths - there is a light that never goes out