preshow lethargy

feeling down about my performance, mostly because i don't feel i am doing enough with the character. last night after the show we went to claddagh and recapped the evening's performance. all the hilarious bits were mentioned - none of them were mine. here i get the opportunity to play one of shakespeare's most enjoyable and beloved characters and i blow it. but at least the show as a whole rocks, which is what it's all about, right? citybeat was here last night, so we'll see what kind of notice we receive. i fear my first real review might be ugly - or even worse, i might not be mentioned at all.

low self-esteem much?

good, relaxing and productive day. awoke far too early - 6:30 - especially since sleep stayed away until after 1:30. but at least i didn't have to get out of bed. and i didn't. stole away to jalepenos for cinco de mayo and successfully avoided a detour to half price books. enough to read already and not enough time. spent some time in my hammock (finally), but it was a bit chilly to be truly comfortable.

disturbing dream last night about shag carpet, friendship and mass suicide. i wrote it all down but haven't decided whether it is blogworthy or not. we'll see how i feel tomorrow. or possibly tonight if there's no revelry.

speaking of dreams, i was asked this week which on i'd most like to see come true and the first one that came to mind was...i want a daughter. but then i couldn't explain it. and it seems a bit weird. i'm not sure why a daughter and not a son or even more generically, children. i just know whenever i've thought of having children, they've always been girls. this needs more pondering, but not now. now i hve to go get my puck on. here's hoping for a more than adequate job...
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