that's where i am right now.
God smiled on us today and brought just enough nasty weather mason's way to keep us from school. i knew last night going to bed that i had a two hour delay, so i got to sleep in until 6:30 and just as i was pulling on my clothes, the phone rang and the news that they had canceled school rang loud and clear. so i through on some jeans and a sweatshirt and headed to morning prayers. spent the day catching up on stuff i've been putting off. relaxed a little. but as great as it was to be off school, it was a tough one fasting-wise. very aware of my desire for food. found myself several times today praying, which is the point, of course.
everyone in house church is sick, so we'll not be meeting tonight. been struggling lately with my role as leader - truth is, i feel i mostly suck. and i wonder if we wouldn't be better off without me leading. if one of my roles is to help set the vision for the church, i'm not sure i've done much to help with that. the vision i had has not come to fruition. and i know there's been a lot going on in our lives and i realize ultimately it is God's hands, but i can't help but feel like i'm hindering - not so much because of what i'm doing, but more what i'm not doing. and i'm not sure if the rest of the group is feeling that or not. probably something we should talk about.
my head is all wonky from lack of food. not a good idea to blog right now.
these lyrics just ran through my itunes:
tension is to be loved
when it is like a passing note
to a beautiful, beautiful chord
when it is like a passing note
to a beautiful, beautiful chord
always have loved that song.
40 more minutes. think i'm going to find something other than this to occupy my time. might blog later. who knows. not me.
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Now playing: Sixpence None The Richer - Tension Is A Passing Note
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