knowing when to keep your mouth shut

i started a post early this morning in the middle of a funk that stayed with me most of the day. it was a scathing rant about christians who had hijacked my faith so that now when others hear the words Christ they think intolerant and judgmental, not love and sacrifice.

then i realized i was being intolerant and judgmental and deleted the whole thing.

and really, my frustration isn't with people out there. it's with my own inability to communicate who i think i am.

yes, i continue to be driven crazy by online dating.

today was one of those askew days, where nothing seemed to line up right and every little thing made me horribly emotional. not the best of times for an english department meeting, but not like i have any control over this. not sure i got far enough today to warrant not doing anything for the rest of the weekend, so i'll probably do some work from home so tuesday i only have to worry about the details. here's hoping.

excellent dinner with chris bean. been trying to get together since he moved to the cincy area and finally found some time tonight. we shared our recent journeys - in many ways, he's where i was a few years back. got to share one of my favorite restaurants (lemon grass), and showed him around st. e's and the neighborhood. he's going to try and come down one tuesday and check things out. i think he'd fit right in here, but i don't want to push him or anything... :)

geesh. i just did an emoticon in my blog. it has been a bad day.

picked up some gear from joyce for this weekend. doing the whole gratisfest and camping, which i've been wanting to do. hopefully the rain won't spoil things. not sure what to do during the day - i mean, i know there's artsy things going on and hopefully good people to talk to, but i'm still a bit on the apprehensive side. seems like a great way to end the summer, though.

lorelai is still at kevin's. going to need to turn the rental car in tomorrow - what was originally a two day job has pushed into a whole week. and while state farm is covering part of the rental, five days is about the limit of what i can afford at the moment. hopefully she'll be done tomorrow - i miss her, mostly because the rental doesn't have cruise and it's hard driving the speed limit without it ;)

there's another one. i think it's time to stop now.
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