school, that is.
i mean, physically i'm here, but my brain is somewhere else completely at the moment. the only problem is, i'm not sure where it is. i at least hope it's having a good time, maybe sipping cocktails on a beach somewhere, or enjoying a walk outside in the woods on the side of a mountain. if it's not here, it might as well be enjoying itself.
been pondering resolutions and for whatever reason i can't seem to come up with any. i mean, eat better, exercise more, blahty blahty blah, but i'm really not feeling resolute at the moment (yes, i know, improper use of the word. i'm being witty. or at least i think i am). to quote calvin:
"See, in order to improve oneself, one must have some idea of what's "good." That implies certain values. But as we all know, values are relative. Every system of belief is equally valid and we need to tolerate diversity. Virtue isn't "better" than vice. It's just different. I refuse to be victimized by notions of virtuous behavior."
To which hobbes replies, "I don't know if I can tolerate that much tolerance."
seriously, bill watterson is a genius.
i'm quickly realizing the posting of my thoughts from the bike trip are more than just a bit on the painful side, as i'm sure everyone has realized. ah well. i toyed with the idea of keeping a snarkastic commentary along with them, to take some of the sting out, but really, what does it matter? not like there's anything there that most people reading this don't already know. i mean really, did anyone expect that it would be all daisies and butterflies? i am a bit disturbed by some of the parallels to my life now. i sincerely believe i've grown and changed as a person, but reading these entries makes me wonder at time. at least i'm consistent, right?
i remember in high school hearing my youth pastor describe me as a buoy - up and down, but always consistently in the same place, setting boundaries. guess it's better than a yo-yo. :) i've always been drawn to the quote by walpole: "Life is a tragedy for those who feel, but a comedy to those who think." i realize i lean heavily, especially in my writing, to the tragedy side. but there are parts of life i find freaking hilarious. i hope as i've grown older i've moved to the center of these ideas. but too often i stray to feeling instead of thinking.
maybe i should resolve to think more in the coming year.
hmmm, that doesn't sound like a good idea. maybe feel less?
maybe get over myself (and suddenly all my readers go "YES! That one!").
meeting after school. then janet and matt are coming over at 8:00 to do a little rehearsal for sunday's celebration. hopefully i don't crash too hard before all that is done. gotta love fridays.
better go make sure i'm ready for fourth bell. at least they're taking a test. and here's hoping fifth bell isn't completely out of control. please oh please oh please....
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Tunes: beck - oh maria
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